I'm a film lover, but there's this weird thing that happens to me when the lights go down in a theater. & First there are the trailers -- which I love. & Most of them are bad, but the good ones stay with me. & Mostly, I love trailers because they represent possibility. & They are neat little packages of seduction. & After those 10 minutes of possibility, I get the thing I actually paid for... the thing that could let me down... the movie I've actually come to see. & Which gets me to the weird thing that happens: & I'm always slightly disappointed when the movie starts. & These are not the words of a film lover, I know. But because I've built up expectations and hopes, I'm uneasy. &